The suicide of Robin Williams is putting new focus on depression and mental health care around the country.
Rhonda Ellis' only immediate connection to Robin Williams is through the screen, but she feels even closer to him now, "Anybody. It can happen to anybody. Movie star of a homeless person. A life is a life," Harris said.
She knows what it is like to feel there is no way out, no choice, but to see an end to a life long battle with depression.
"I attempted suicide in the hospital," Ellis says matter of factly, "Razor blade. Slashed it. I was serious. There are a lot of people who are serious and people don't take them serious."
It has been eight years since her suicide attempt, but Harris says that she is not cured, going back to a hospital is not an option, "It would be real hard to," she said.
That's because there is a lifetime cap of 190 treatment days that Medicare will pay for and that is her only insurance option.
There is also a serious shortage of Mental Health care beds in Houston, "We drive people to crisis in order for them to access care," said Dr. George Santos.
Santos has been the Medical Director for Mental Health care hospitals in the past and says funding is part of the problem, "There is certainly a problem with inpatient access, but the biggest problem is how do you keep people out of hospitals."
Look no further than Robin Williams, Dr. Santos said, to see Depression is a lifetime illness no matter who is suffering.
"When you have somebody with nearly unlimited resources think about the person that is homeless and has no place to go to," adds Rhonda Ellis.
To those people, to the version of herself with blade in hand, or anyone else that desperate, Rhonda has a message, "There is hope. Don't give up. There is hope."
She knows that from experience too.
Williams death highlights depression